Dear Joseph,
Please think well (although I guess, or better, hope, you are already doing that) before you leave the Church.
Believe me, your sundays are much better spend in church than spend fishing!
Please, don't blame God for the weaknesses of His servants!
If you don't feel happy in your current parish, then by all means, find an other one in which you can continue your journey towards God.
If you don't feel happy in your jurisdiction (ROCOR), there are a couple of things you could do.
First, if you are not "born" in that jurisdiction, think why you are in there.
Second, try to look very well again if it is really something of the jurisdiction, or just something of certain persons (lay or clergy).
If you being in ROCOR is not because of "cannonical conviction reasons" but more or less "by accident", and if (and be very, very honest to yourself and to God, since He is the supreme Judge of all our actions) you are really convinced that it is really something of ROCOR as a whole, then, and only then, try to find a parish of another jurisdiction in which you can feel at home as in our Lord's House. (BTW, when I say "you", I mean ofcause you and your wife)
Like I said, do not blame God for the actions of His servants, because that is essentially what you say if you would leave the Church (i.e. spend your sundays fishing).
"one more burden of the Church Abroad"? NO ONE IS EVER A BURDEN FOR GOD OR HIS CHURCH!!!!
"...a hopeless sinner" Aren't we all?
My brother, I wish you and your wife a lot of strength and wisdom in this difficult time!!!!
Ofcause I will pray for the both of you.
In Christ,
Makis
p.s. Try to speak (again??) about it with your spiritual father.