Hi,
I am persuaded of the truth of Orthodoxy, and have been praying with Orthodox books for some time now. I have a nice selection of icons as well. I've paid some visits to Orthodox parishes, all of which were mainline. My main difficulty is that it is hard for me to evaluate the branches and details of various ruptures and unions, so that the Orthodox field looks rather fuzzy to me. But in general I think the modernism, renovationism, chiliasm, ecumenism, and other problems are in the background at mainline Orthodox locations, such that it will be increasingly difficult to have the traditional Orthodox experience in those locations. Mainstream Orthodox say they are satisfied, but I think they may be rationalizing to some extent. My heart's wish is to avoid those -isms, and to be in the Julian Calendar. I remain uncertain as to what lengths I must go to avoid the mainline influences. As problems creep in, will they be kept at bay? Must I absolutely separate myself from, or not attach myself to, them because of background problems? Perhaps these are just Satanic attacks that do not undermine their legitimacy. Maybe I needn't worry so much about it, and just accept that Satan is attacking the Orthodox church, and that all will be fine. I don't know. Anyway surely the new calendar is offensive to the saints, and surely organs and pews are absurd, and naturally push the faithful toward absurdity.
Anyway if you could pray for me over the next months as I navigate the waters. I am reading and praying. Thank you.